attitude gal

2006-11-26T05:46:00.000-08:00

im freaking boring nw!!!
wad i hav done was slp, watch tv and on line.
mg hw am im going to survive through out.
one wordBORING!!

2006-11-23T20:14:00.000-08:00

is raining nw..
the weather is jus like my mood .
hope tat the weather would change.
i dunno wad shld i say or rather hw shld i react.
i still cant get over u boring,awkward,dumb
i hate de anti promises tat u made.
going out in ur big grp wif ur frenz .
i think im dumb to do tat alright .
i dunno wad u mean by telling mi all ur personal things
but then thanx for sharing it wif mi .
frenz maybe is the basic step we shld start fr...

2006-11-21T08:04:00.000-08:00

im back ..
i waited this dae to be back again.
yeah, IS HOLIDAY!!!
Although, i dont deserve to enjoy tis holiday
but whose cares wad is done is done i cant afford
to reverse everything and start again.
frens, family may talk about it but i dun give a damn
you may think im being acting childish but you know the feeling.
YEAH is my life . nobody is perfect . i see my mistake but you dun know
cause u never ever konw hw to respect one's decision .
the feeling tat you nev had and im having it for 17 years.
oh gosh , is hurting.

2morro is my gradnite.
And you know wad my dress sux.
i wasted so much money to buy the cloth and my aunt use the wrong cloth to make my dress
im so freak out but i cant say anything.
regret of spending so much money on grad nite .
but is alraedy done so thats it.

2006-10-06T06:03:00.000-07:00

finally have completed my art ..
yeah. but disspointed with it..
hopefully can see a B in it..
thers only a way nw that is look ahead
not going to make any stupid mistake anymore.

im disspointed wif myself ...
wad done is done .

2006-09-30T08:18:00.000-07:00

wad a unlucky year ..
everything since to be in a mess no matter wad it is.
loss my hp . wtf.
dunno y im so careless.
maybe is god's will.
prelims is jus shit
have nth to say abt it.
i cant be online tis often anymore
is like god is killing me.

17 years old gal ..
nev ever thought tat now is jus the beginning of life.
nev ever thought tat my grand pa would be attack by cancer
nev ever thought tat i actually feel the pain when i heard abt it.
my beginning of life yet it is my grandpa ending?
pls god pls dun do tis i cant accept it of losing the most respectful personin my life.

2006-09-10T00:13:00.000-07:00

i thought everything would be alright .
nev i thought of it could be a lie
jus to made mi happy.

hopefully im not thinking too much.
it reali need courage to ask and i did it.

im looking 4ward to the dae ..

2006-09-08T22:24:00.000-07:00

i hav try my luck and that's it.
when i thought of getting over everything,ther are some atupid thing that make me damn unhappy!!
u bloody ppl ,watch ur mouth !!
and to u, u think i giv a damn to tis type of things ,if i wanna say i will go straight to c****** and say it.
y shld i waste my time and spread it to everyone
and mind u if u ppl not happy dun make mi not happy too.
i hav my problem alright!!
And to the bloody fucker KAIRUi I dun even know u !!!
wth if u dun even noe me u can say my name out .
wow u r indeed clever meh.
u hav super brain ah!!

when ther no hope ther since to be hope..

2006-09-02T10:29:00.000-07:00

1am is not late at all, mind u.
DAD and MUM nev even say a word or wadever
wad position are u both to say me.
PlS LA tis not the first time i came back tis late ok.
wad olevel cannot go out ! wad the shit la u might as well say olevel no need to eat and slp.
everyday study for 24 hrs !
pls dun use computer to threaten me. computer is nth to me!!!
and pls dun blame the fault on mum
and dun even u dare to say mum pamper mi.
she know wad i wan nt like both of u!!
she know study is not my cup of tea.
if i ever put all my effort she would be happy.
wad the shit , do you all think u understand me.
pls no!!! i hate it when u blame the fault on mum !!
i simply hate it!!!
pls im not like both of u and dun expect me to be like both of u!!!

2006-08-31T06:55:00.000-07:00

im tired of it.
God u are fooling mi once again.

the running clock would nev reverse back,cause it would nev meant to be.

2006-08-25T02:58:00.000-07:00

im feeling high and low during tis entire week.
i didnt know histroy could be reverse back
i didnt know he actually remember the fontcolours i usually use
i didnt know he would ask me hw about wanting to go for a beach party.
but...
he add on..
or i shouldnt say go wif who..
i just dunno wad to say as i let another chances slip off again..

beach hunks are meant to look but
u know that just something tat is missing ..

something tat are meant to be unsaid 4ever..

2006-08-20T04:44:00.000-07:00

iT would be better of ..
issit true i deserve tat grade.
maybe i think i deserve it tat way..
i currently thiniking of wad i hav done tat i could be proud of.
And ther's nth.
Im cant admit i hav put in 100% of my effort..
BuT wad im concerning tat tis is not wad i wan!
Sometimes im jus thinking of hw i wish i am fr a rich family
at least i hav a backup..
tat could at least provide mi the money for doing wad i want .
And nw wad can i chose that only one road which is study hard.
wadever it is study is not my cup of tea.
if i flung .. i dun think im going to proceed anymore..

2006-08-10T04:17:00.000-07:00

she still slacking ,dreaming all the long..
she wish she could stop faceing wad she dun wanna face
she wish reality would be hidden
she wish she would be living in the world that involve him
she wish time would stop for her whenever she feel like giving up
she wish she would find something that has a meaning for her
she wish life would be easier
she wish everyone is happy
she wish she is happy
she wish wad she desire for will come true
she wish everyday is a gd hairday 4 her
she wish wish wish wish wish wish wish!
1st-result for 2morro would be wad i wan
2nd-
3rd-one dae...

2006-07-29T03:36:00.000-07:00

Exams is coming..
deadline 4 my art is around the corner.
im rather stress and tired.
i guess that is the reason y i keep on lossing my wallet.
The only thing i hav to thank god was i found one of my wallet
together wif my ic at the bedok interchange.
thank you to the person 4 being honest and helpful.
nth inside my wallet gone missing.

These few days being rather moodless
everything since to irritats me.
im fucking frustrated wif everything
it happens again im beginning to be attitude and so
pls dun come near mi.
it since aimless, pointless, meaningless and sadness for mi to see my future if
i dun wake up now.
pls wake mi up lord
and pls help mi along the lonely road.

2006-07-23T00:27:00.000-07:00

after 8 months and i saw him( m&m choc guy)..

i cant admit that time dont awaits ppl
time make a person forget a person
time make ppl regret !

A guy that i met when i was working during the holidae.
a nice guy or ??
i dunno..
And i gave him a name called m&m choc guy.
why?
Becaause he brought mi m&m choc..
i think choc hav a special meaning.
wad's de meaning for?
he may nt be handsome or$$
but i jus find him special..
and so we hav a fun time but at the end his frenz gave mi his particular ..
and i didnt save anything ..
after that he avoid mi.

afterall he was still a passer-by ..
nt jus a passer-by but a passer-by wif a gal beside him.

2006-07-05T07:56:00.000-07:00

is ther any where i could escape to?
it since like nothing i could do well in.
i totally disappointed with my art i'm afraid i would be doing badly for it..
i just dunno y it jus make me feel sick of doing it.
i cant find any interest in doing it .
i try i fail..
i just dun hav de aspiration at this time round.
And the worst part was there only 1 month left to my dead line!
how could i finished when i ask her* to help mi enlarge a picture and yet she* say she hav no time .
ya i guess i nt de person who could produce wad you wan !!
sometime i just dun wanna be frustrated but i jus cant stand it anymore when she was complaining all day long that we are not interested in doing our task.
please ask yourself are you helping us?
whatever !

2006-06-20T00:59:00.000-07:00

Have nt being blogging yea....
cause there so much to say ..
so i choosen to remain silent..
school holiday is going to end soon.
wad i hav done during tis holiday?
school 4 de 2nd week of de holiday..
it bother mi so much as my mum keep yelling at mi to get off my bed to sch..
u noe is fucking irritating !!
that one week is jus wasting of my time.
but soon it ended..yea finally.
4 de third week of holidae..
i do some shopping wif my mum
it was great as i dun hav to payfor anything..
i could take wad ever i wan and she will pay 4 it..
and den 4 the last week of holidae...
guess wad im probably going to stuck at home to revise my wk and
go 4 tuition and not to miss it im going to trim my hair..
probably 2morro ya.
and u noe i went to trim my eyebrown 4 $21 ..
wow is expensive..
ppl would probably think im crazy..
but nevm i feeling great and lucky..
so to end my entry for today, i hope 2morrro onwards will be a better dae..
And i will feel happie all dae..

2006-05-15T20:25:00.000-07:00

wad a hypocrite you are! arent you tired ?
i think u hav been living in this way through ur entired life .
i belived in ur lies once twice and thrice.
im so glad that i have you this type of "friend".
ther still plenty of ppl falling in ur trap..
im jus wondering are they stupid or are they just keeping to themself.
oh ya y do i care so much ? huh?
haha..
anyway thanx to be a hypocrite ya.
i "enjoy" ur lies ..

ya and if that day u are tired please have a gd slp ya.

2006-05-06T23:22:00.000-07:00

time fly...
nw im sitting for my mid year exam.
soon will be chinese o's level...
after that would be prelim .. and den mock exam and den finally
de gceolevel..
is so near yet im still nt prepared.
exams really killed me.
as im not well prepared at all.
ther's so much concept i havent even memorise it.
is so shit.......
wish i could get away from reality..

am i de only one struggling??

2006-04-15T23:49:00.000-07:00

I doESn't really know wad am i doing right now...
I wondering am i in de wrong path.
which direction should i look forward to.
ambitious - im a person who is ambitious
so wad im ambitious when i cant reach my goal.
wad is de point ?
my mind have everything that i wanna do.
but i dont reali noe which choices are the best .
so i just cant be bother with it
just got to follow my heart .

i hav enjoy my weekend ya.
is time for me to start my engine for this coming week.
i shall determine .
hope so .

2006-04-02T01:13:00.001-08:00

yeah.. congrats to mi i hav finally completed 2nd piece of my opera..(jus 4 mi to look to the bright side)
hmmm chinese olevel is coming ..
my god pls help mi..
let mi get over tis time round..
hmm test is around the corner ...
zzz... study?when i dun noe so many things still..
im lazy still...

2006-03-24T01:13:00.000-08:00

COME AND GO THAT'S IT...

ppl come across different ppl everydae.
no matter how you hate that person or how you love the person u jus have to take it. Ppl can hate a person by a sec or fall for a person by a sec. that's wad life are all about.. Ppl are falling in love everywhere everysec everymin . However that is jus a crush bcos after few days later it would jus normally slip off ur mind . (wad im i talking abt??)
jus simply wanna let my thoughts down i dont giv ur damn for anything..
when it comes i will take when it goes i will jus end it..
is jus so simple..
sometimes is better not to get to the final distination .

2006-03-17T00:41:00.001-08:00

finally i did something to my hair...
yeah i went to perm it..
i was quite satistfy with it..
so i guessed my mood is changing.
i was kindly bored as i spend my holiday at home.
sianzzzz...
i got a urge of working part time
so that i wont be home for the next holiday..
any lobang???
i really admired those who can study and work at the same time.
It is tough alright.however i think it is a way to exercised ur brain and to spend the time to the fullest.
rather than spend the time on sleeping.
i think sleeping is really killing of time.
sleeping alot made you feel rather more tired
dont you think so?
sleeping made my life miserable.
es. late for sch skip sch , cant finish assignment...etc
But i still love to slp alot...
i just cant change my routine.

seriously i trying to change it ..
haha if i could next holidae would be a fun one.

2006-03-07T05:41:00.000-08:00

common test was over..
as my result was like ??%%@@#..
gt nth to say about it.
i cant say i have put in any effort.
i cant say i did not studied.
i cant say wad i studied gone into my head.
i cant say i did memorise the fact.
i cant blamed on my tutor.
As i did not do my regular self studies
i did not pay attention in class
wad went wrong?
As there are many question marks in my head now.
wad could i do to improve myself?
wad do i reali need right now?
i keep on asking myself was it the right choice for me to get up to
sec 5 ?
i don't really thought of this last year.
but right now im struggling.
seriously i think because my mind set havent being change.
im just like a few *** out there lying to myself is jus a common test
is ok .im nt the worse of all so is ok...
im jus trying to avoid rather then facing the reality.
im being fucking ass im frustrated i just dunno why im nt changing
my mind set ..
i dun wanna waste my time and waste my father money ...
money and time are both precious.

2006-02-19T05:18:00.001-08:00

Recently, things doesn't goes well for mi.
I was FUCKIING UNHAPPY !!!
FUCKING DOWN!!!
FUCKING TIRED!!!
i jus hate to be said tat ...
hooligan , attitude , rude ,
Are u trying to say im still living in de past.
in de fucking damn environment..
with tat fucking attitude
with tat fucking thoughts of y bother to go school
with tat fucking guy telling mi this
I had grown up i know wad im doing
u fucking slut , u dig my past out !!!!
i DAMN FUCKING HATE PPL TO REMIND ME OF MY PAST!!
(I nev wanted to said it but i jus cant stop myself fr typing it)
yesturdae i thought de whole nite.
y do i giv a damn for those fucking hurting words.
y do i keep changing for the best i could.
y do i feel de pain .
y do i cried tat whole nite .
WHY? WHY? WHY?

im yelling deep inside of my heart.
pls get out of mi.........

2006-02-16T05:19:00.000-08:00

tat women is totally insane .
you fucking slut.
shout all you want complain all you want bitch all you want..
cause you are insane.
remember wad you say
wad u say maybe is happening on urself now.

retribution do comes around .
u r highly educated yet the word out from ur mouth is tat dirty.

2006-02-10T18:24:00.000-08:00

Is already mid of feb..
and i hav nt finish much of my assignment..
and im still slping in de class...
and common test is coming..
E.M.S.H.C.A...
NONE OF DE ASSIGNMENT I HAVE COMPLETED!~!!!
wads on earth am i doing???
feeling frustrated...

2006-01-19T19:54:00.000-08:00

it since a long time i last blog...
Is 2006 ... And a new year jus started...
School since to bored mi again ..
im repeating my mistake again...
i knew it but i jus cant made myself focus in the lesson as im feeling more and more sleepy...
i guess tat's de reason im skipping sch 2dae..
y bother to go if i cant made myself focus in de lesson ..
i cant lie to myself as im struggling through nw..
i got to plan my time table soon after de cny ended..

y bother to look back as a new year jus started..
wad does a new year means???
it simply means start a new..

is easy to say...
is hard to 4get...

2005-12-13T06:04:00.001-08:00

yestuday went town wif ...
is fun ya ...
we walk and walk and walk
talk and talk and talk
haha...
guess who im wif...
lol...
saw *** and ***
haha they look so shock...
so funny...
i gt one of my answer to my question...
yah yah...
i nev feel so happy again
hopefully i can hav de happiest time fr nw till next mondae...
thanx god 4 everythibg...

2005-12-13T06:04:00.000-08:00

life have being rather ...
happiness or bad...
Is the way u choose to be...
can i or rather hw shld i choose my life to be full of excitment ???
living in de past , present and future...
i have full or regret..
y???
is de blame on my parents or myself...
nt who shld i blame ...
cause de person is still myself...
is my life, im de one who is walking through tis road ...
im struggling ...
im afraid ..
im exhausted. ..
tats y i pray everynite..
hopeing tat my prayer were answered..

do dad&mum reali care
sometimes a few words of encouragement can do even in de end...

2005-12-06T04:12:00.000-08:00

finally went tanning at safra...
de weather is gd ...
thank god 4 the lovely weather...
de whole week nt feeling well till 2dae den feeling better..
dame it.. i hate to be sick!!!
is all bcos of de work..
hmmm de exhabition which im working had already ended
yeah..
dun feel like working le...
haiz...
but maybe going to find another job ba...
cos no work no money so mus work lo...
sianzzzzzzz...

she remember everything abt him...
he love red he love wastern food he love bun dong he love ice hocky
he blah blah blah...
3 years have gone she still thinking abt him...
she wonder will she ever get over him...
and accept another love so easily...

2005-12-01T04:02:00.000-08:00

Work took place in de couple of daes...
As i say had already took place..
so let mi talk abt it..

1st dae..
took 518 crowded..
first time in my life i faint in de public..
still went to work..
but im nt feeling well..
took cab home..

2nd dae..
took mrt..(nt tat bad)
manage to get ther on time..
took cab home..

3rd dae..
took cab ther..
mp3 no batt..
search the whole suntec 4 magazine..(nev manage to find)
get to see and get near de so cal 'sg'(feel abit in luck)(mood turn better)
but...
things start to change...
im outside cause inside is too boring...
de aunty cant wait long so she cal de organizer..
de organizer cal derick
of cause i noe im in the wrong
cause i gone out far too long..
but u imagine if you r de one who is seating ther for de whole dae alone what will you end up to be???
happy ??? enjoy???
wont you feel bored...
ANd wad de hell ..
u ppl in de office enjoyed urself
& wad ur pay is higher den mi
wth la ... den in ther bitch abt mi..
and spotcheck on mi...
wad i nev open my eye and see
dun anyhw say ...
im nt in de wrong okay!!!
u ppl told mi if they r accompany by overseas visitors they r allow to be in ther am i right..
pls who is in de wrong ..
maybe my tone is nt rite ...
wadever...

u ppl jus love to bitch abt mi carry on ur bitching...
i jus "love" it!!!

an unlucky work week!!!

2005-11-27T06:38:00.000-08:00

23 daes to nlevel result...
scary scary...
hopefully i can get up to sec 5...
???????????????????????????????????
10%...
or
0%...
omg...
feel like going sunten 2morro..
de weather gt to be gd pls...

haiz gt to pray hard tis few daes...

2005-11-26T23:10:00.000-08:00

todae went briefing at suntec convention hall..
is jus a short briefing la.. and den gt to get ther 4 tis short briefing...
wth la..
and de most embarressed thing is i trip of de stairs in front of kinded so call strangers..
omg... de most embarressed thing i ever had b4...
b4 tat i hav a feeling i will trip of..
my feeling is like so accurate la..
nw i kinded hate tis job!!
cant think of de remaining daes hw to face de so called "STRANGERS"
And wad i gt to wear a vest 4 it..
de vest is kinded ugly la.
regret of getting tis job meh...
is a thrill... that's all i can say...

awkward...

2005-11-21T13:16:00.000-08:00

A loNG loNG TImE nEv bLOg Le...
caUse My BloG SkiN iS SuX !!!
TIll Nw iS stILL sUX...
buT i CaNt sTop mYSelF tO BloG...

Tis dAes was woRkiNG 4 A exBItIOn At EXPo
de ExbiTioN WAS WiNe FoR AsIa 2005...
GuESS waD iS mY pOsiTIoN ???
CAnT beLIvE im DE aNNouCer...
iS lIKe OmG!!! ASk Mi TO aNNouCE...
I nEV dOnE iT b4...But I stILL haV tO do It...
mEEt New ppL ...TheY weRE fuNNY FuN AnD thEY Are ClEVER MEH!!!
aT fiRSt CAnT beLIvE de GALs R fR jC ..
THey dUN look Like TAt agE onE CAUSE i THinK Is BECauSE ThEY r SMall
HAha... fEEl lIKe IM oLder DEn THeM... OMG... Hw CAn I look TAT oLd...
gt A lIttLe cUTe GUy he iS de One who caUGHT My aTTEntIOn fIrst...
yoU noE waD HE iS fr RI... HE IS 16 ... SAmE AgE as Mi..
hE NO NeeD tO taKe olevel aND caN strAIghT AWAy Go TO Jc ...
pRo Rite...hW i WIsH iM tat CLevER... HAhA.. LeT mi DREAm ON..
All AbT mY wOrK ...

Nw IS Abt My lIfE...

I aM so So BOrINg...
everyOnE Is woRkiNg acCEpT mI...
Im FEEliNG LikE Im DEAd
mY miNd iS gOInG WIERD
CaNT StOP THinKIng aBt My rESulT...
Im TAt AFraId Of It...
PLs Let Mi get uP tO Sec 5 ...
I DESPERATELY NEED a CERt...

i found tat im nt de mi...
i love to get to de beach
i love to cycle
i love to try new things
i love to get sporty
i love swimming
i love knowing new ppl
i love to draw
i love to slack at cafe
i love him
he will be ther to tell mi im heading de wrong way pls change de way...
but nw wad issit like he hav gone so far...
I STILL thINK OF HIM DAE and NIte ..
WAD'S DE matter y cant i 4get him...
i dun think so much 4 anything
but nw wad is happening???
i keep thinking of wad will it gonna be 2morro
keep reflecting on myself..
i hate tis type of life
i am nt happie at all
nt tat happie at all
my life is meaningless...
pls i dun wan tis type of life...
i noe i cannot choose..
tis is wad god wan mi to be...
but i reali hate it so much...

2005-11-01T13:37:00.000-08:00

she misses alvin lotXXXXXXXXX !!!!

she is bored ...
she jus wanna to hav someone ther when she need tat someone...
she dun wanna get into relationship as she dunno wad is love...
she wan love but she dunno wad is love...
she miss alvin but she noe she misses him as a frenz...

Is not U R the ONE who is noT PERECT IS u r TOO perfect TAT iT Gave mi DE PRessure to fall in love wif u...

2005-10-21T19:10:00.000-07:00

being working for tis whole week...
de work is okay..
seat ther and wait 4 de dae to end
wad a nice job ya...
but of cause ther will be some bloody idiots
but overall tat r much gd guys ther ya...
i miss my chance...
chances gone and is gone 4ever...
only if i could meet u in another job...
if we r fated...
thers a hard way to get through u
i should nt hav nt save ur no.
i noe u r dissapointed...
but im sorrie...
i dun mean it jus nw..
reali...

if i gt another chance i will nt my chances slip off again...

2005-10-15T17:13:00.000-07:00

long time nev blog...
since when nlevel started...

time pass reali fast
i hav gone through my nlevels
to mi is 5o / 50 wheather i can go up to sec 5 nt...
i dun reali noe another words dun dare to think of if i cant go up to sec 5...
i dunno wad shld i do...
shld i go ite...
or shld i take private O'S...
will my fathers allow if i wanna take private O'S...
i dunno...
i jus feel like changing mine enviroment...
im sick and tierd of my life
i did put in effort i did try
hopefully my effort is nt wasted...

my life
no matter wad de result will be
i belive tat is god's will...

2005-09-24T13:33:00.000-07:00

so sleepy... wanna slp more but cannot...
1.havent finish art..
2.gt to pratice english paper..
3.have to study histroy...

so much to draw do study...
hw can i finish by 2dae...???
24hrs is reali nt enough 4 mi...
ZZzzz...

im running out of time ...
but i reali couldnt think of anything to draw...

shitshitshit...
last min is jus so fuck up!!!

2005-09-18T15:05:00.000-07:00

tats mi on de pic taken on my birthdae ...
an unforgettable dae...
thanx gurls 4 celebrating my birthdae wif mi...

i enjoy myself ..especially when taking all those pic...alll de laughter all de fun....

maybe tis will be de last year ba ...

who noes i will nt be going up to sec 5...thanx so much ..

2005-09-17T13:13:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTDAY TO MI!!!

THANX TO ALL ...

WHO HAV WISH MI....

BUT WILL NEV BE HIM...

HAHA BUT IS OKAY

IM STILL HAPPIE AFTER ALL...

2005-09-08T03:52:00.000-07:00

days r getting nearer to end of nlevel..
had already finish 2 paper tat were chinese and ss ...
not having much confident in myself...
as i nev really put in much effort ...
im afraid if i reali cant make it to sec 5...
if i reali cant make it to sec 5 wad am i going to do...
shld i continue my studies???
i reali dunno i jus dun love to study...
is like when i study so hard i could only get wad fucking result...
jus hate ppl who compare mi to them...
i noe im nt clever im nt gd in studies
so u all look down on mi...
wth ... u all noe waD is de feeling like ...
is nt i nev try to put in effort is i did try but i still cant ...
dun ever judge de person if u dunno de person well..
by de person appearence , actions ,oranything else...
sometime is nt de person who wanted to be tat way...

i thought i could get wad i wan when i try...
but i thought wrongly cause no matter hw hard i try
wad i got back was not the result tat i wanted...

2005-08-30T12:14:00.000-07:00

isallgonesofarfaraway...butistillloveutatmuch...isallgone...

2005-08-27T15:59:00.000-07:00

prelim gonna end soon
Nlevel coming soon...
wad's de difference meh is still exam...
if ther is'nt a need to study,
to sit 4 examination
i guess tat will be de happiest thing in my entire life time...

i dunno wad i reali wan in my life
or another way round
i knew wad i wanted
jus tat i hav no confidence in myself...

2005-08-14T15:28:00.000-07:00

my freshBOX guy!!!
i saw him yesturdae...
cause went to bugis...
haha lucky he is ther...so my trip to ther is nt wasted..
he remember mi den
eyecontact den smile den he talk to mi...
haha..
but haiz...
wad more can i say..
we r still stranger...

if thers a chance he is reali de guy tat is in my mind...

2005-08-06T14:41:00.000-07:00

tis week slack again ...
nev go sch on thur ...
hmm nth much happen...
went national library do research...
having new labtop...
but de internet connection is damn slow...

wad more lei...
still hav but i dun bother to say le...

pls... dun think to much... idiot...

2005-07-31T19:22:00.000-07:00

de whole week is jus like fucking hell ...
having finish my nlevel art ...
is like i nev put de much effort i shld put
think i will nt getting wad i expect...
den my nlevel chinese oral is like i dunno la...
asking mi stupid question...
haiz...wad shld i do nw... i being slacking so much...
oh yea my sch having malay riots ...
first time i see gang riots ...
but it involve de two dudes...
they gonna police case
dunno wad will happen to them...haiz..
went play pool wif ger ...
thers all abt tis week...

i wan swimming...

2005-07-23T18:35:00.000-07:00

tis week happen to slack alot...
gonna get on task
no slacking anymore...

happen to stay in sch till 7pm everydae in library to study...
but manage to
pratice maths and physic...
24hrs realli nt enough...

fridae after study in library went to airport 4 dinner...
quite fun lol...
happie happie dae...

thinking of buying mp3
hoping to get one on next saturdae...
hopefully i could...

hmm nth much le...
gonna pratice maths le...

is better nt to plan den plan something
cause if it never happen u will be dissapointed...

2005-07-17T20:08:00.000-07:00

gonna 4get u...
since u r so serious wif tat gal ...
all de best to u...

my tears once drop again ...
i promise it will be de last time ...
my last time saying i love u..
once u lie to mi again...
i will nev 4get wad u say...
fuckoff ... lier...

life is tough...
jus wanna hav a break...
everythings jus getting worst and worst...
wad can i do lord???
pls tell mi...
am i choosing de rite way???
am i ???

tears drop...
cant find any reason to be happie again...
but is life
let it go
cause is already gone gone so far...

2005-07-12T22:28:00.000-07:00

i cant see anything tat is much more den passing my nlevel...
im afraid reali...
im trying trying and trying...
nw my life is jus in black and white...
i hav started wad abt de ending
wad will it be like???
even i fail i knew i hav try ...
i think tats life...
and i wont regret ...

2morro having histroy test and nlevel oral...
hopefully come out china 4 my histroy ...
and 4 my oral hopefully i can speak frequently
and i can discribe de pic and fast react of answering de q....

gtg study my histroy...
simplyjushim...

2005-07-07T14:51:00.000-07:00

i no need any one to judge mi...
i think im old enough to noe wad is more important in my life..
i no need any comments ...
4 wad i being doing...
i nev meant to say anything tat link to him...
never... is jus tat something in life is jus so fated...
maybe im wrong ...
but is my life ...

maybe i should nt even speak at all...
words out cant be kept back anymore...

urmyall...

2005-07-05T23:03:00.000-07:00

sch reopen having so much thing to do
is a busy weeks...
think will be a busy months too..
so far everything goes out rite...
having most of my time study ...
......
less time of....

i pretend...
i dun wish to but i hav to...
cause i dun wish to be tat stupid anymore
but i still cant stop it...
i try to imagine tat u r nt exist in my brain but
ur name is still flowing around ...

ZZzzzzzZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzz...........

2005-07-03T20:14:00.000-07:00

wadeverbyebye,,wordstathurtmyheart,,
wadcanisayisuretribution
nowunoedefeelings???

2005-07-03T20:10:00.000-07:00

guess we r nev meant to be...
gonegonegonesofar...
if can i wish i nev knew u cause is tat hard of got u out of my mind...
willitbemiracle...hopeso...
istilllovehimtatmuch...
butisgonesofarfarfaraway...
itrytopretendtryto4gettrytofall4anotherguybutistillcantgetuoutofmy...
wadcanisay...
jusstayinmyworldsilently...
andobservedandpraytaturhappiealways...
ithinkimstupidbutialsodunnourmyonlymotivation4nw...

2005-07-02T17:47:00.000-07:00

letMIsawHIMlaterPLS!!!
ImisshIM!!!

2005-06-26T20:06:00.000-07:00

i will hav my own way out
tis is my life
i cant afraid of it
i hav de courage nw to carrie on
cause i cant afford to fail tis time round
looking 4ward to each dae of my life and i shall nt complain and face de reality..
i hav awake fr my slp dun wish to slp anymore if nt my life will be ruin.

u make mi awake...
hope is still nt TOO late..
iLOveU...

2005-06-23T13:34:00.000-07:00

im jus bored like hell...
is already de last week of holidae y cant we
have the more meaningful week 4 tis week...
life is getting more and more miserable 4 mi...
is jus like white and black...
white means start black means end...
asking myself am i preparing 4 sch reopen...
my answer of cause is a NO...
HAVENT even finish my hw ...
wth...
sometime reali hate myself
y i can't hav de limit to everything ...
i jus wanna be serious wif myself to carried on wif my life in a more meaningful way...

one thing i hav to say...
i will nt enter sparks
can say i will nt go clubbing
but i will go pub ...
okay i admit is bcos of his word so i will nt go...
u can say i silly i stupid im tat bai chi...
but i think is 4 my own gd too...
plus my sis dun like mi to go clubbing they only let mi go pub...
sorrie yea..

i take his word tat serious...
cause _______________

i love him tat much...

2005-06-20T14:09:00.000-07:00

few daes back nev blog le...
time flys reali fast, is already de last week of june holidae...
wth y so fast sia...
haiz dunno will i be getting through tis time round nt...

last week went giving flyers
hmm de pay is like wth la...
den went town...
den went sentosa...
actually wanna go see bb match cause tot he s ther mah...
too bad he nev went cause **** also nt ther...
but went sentosa saw white ball...
he see mi i see him den i turn away cause beside him hav another gal****
wth...somemore he carrie her sia...
but i think is jus fren cause de gal gt hang out wif other guys too...
haiz i dunno wad can i say... one word he is reali a wolf...
lol..
but i like...
den went play pool at pavillion
wtf kanna check...
sickening meh...
stupid chao ah lian!!!
damn u!!!
but lucky saw him** j**
if nt mi reali bery unlucky liao...
haha finally i saw him...
can tis counted fated...
lol...

sometime by planning everything is = to nth...
is opposite by doing nth u will get surprised...

im having 3 names in my mind...

2005-06-13T14:19:00.000-07:00

i_u...
cant belive i find him chat tat dae...
hmmm everything went well...
he ask mi ****
but i nev ****
everything is jus too late ...
im sorrie...
i dun wanna u to be alone i dun like...
pls dun be alone...
i will heart****one

jus hav to carried on wif my life
bcos of u i will
thanx 4 ur encouragement...
hopefully somehw somedae u will hav ur happiness
___________________________________

2005-06-11T09:25:00.000-07:00

went to catch movie at cini wif them...
we gt to watch mr and mrs smith...
haa nice show yea..
jus too bad nev gt to sentosa tis week...
sad sia...
haiz i I MISS MY WHITE BALL!!!

wth im talking..
my mind is completely empty nw...
i dunno ther something on my mind...
jus wish i could say out ...
bored ... even i say wad will it be like ya...
haa so 4 get it...
jus wish ...
yea wanna be at sunset bay rite nw if i could...

2005-06-09T21:59:00.000-07:00

went to bugis 2dae alone...
take de bus 12 ther and home..
went walking around ther...
guess wad i saw him haa
almost hav 4got him..
but i try my luck to de freash box take a look weather he is ther...he is nt ther so is jus too bad...
i nev belive im so lucky 2dae...
when im waiting 4 de traffic to turn green man i turn and look around i saw him haha ...
his hair is GI nw cause he is in de army
no wonder so long nev see him around ther...
he still remember mi lol
im dame stupid only will hav eye contact and smile to him...
den of cause he eye contact back and smile back
i love his smile...actually wanted to say hi but i nev manage to speak out...
stupid mi sia...
gt chance dun wan to take...
haiz ..
but i still happie cause i saw him ...
i think we r fated ya...
haha...

2005-06-08T15:36:00.000-07:00

wad a boring dae...
slept till 12+..
skip my art remedial...
cause i guess went ther also = to do nth...
so fuck up stupid art...
waste so much of my time on it
dame it..
havent even finish it...
shit...

i knew thers no future... ther will only be memories...
but i still wan my white ball ______________________

2005-06-05T10:11:00.000-07:00

went suntec to giv out flyers...
den hav medic and padic free...
den went topshop...
den went home... on de way saw a grp of army guys ...
one of them haa is silly lollipop malay army guy...
he bery cute sia... lol..
when we got off de train he did...lol
always miss it de sia...
haiz...
yea hav free meal too... lol

wad can i say 2dae im a lucky gal
but haiz ...
wad can i say is jus nt fated...

i dunno i jus felt tat im an idiot
i always acted too late
only acted when i shld nt...
y???
can i jus be tat lucky gal having a mr rite...
but nt a flirty mr rite...
reali hate flirter!!!
sometime my words r nt meant to be rite
it can be opposite....

hint... tats always a hint fr wad i said...
___________________________

2005-06-02T13:51:00.000-07:00

my tots of de dae...lol...
went topshop brought de top tat i long ago wanted to buy...
finally i brought it...
and den wad can i say...
haa... went to play pool too...
white & black ball both go in lol...
as i say im training to go in white ball lol...
haiz jus wish he will be ther 2morro...
im so excited ... haa...
im gone crazy shit...
plz stop mi help !!

_____________________________________________
may i
shld i
or
shld'nt i
______________________________________________
imiss--->mine white ball lol..

2005-05-30T23:13:00.000-07:00

never blog 4 a period le cause lazy to blog ...
wad hav been going on wif my life...
went kl 4 three days ...
i cant say is enjoyable but overall is okay la..
as i say singapore is much much better den ther..
thier hotels wad can i say they say is 5 stars to singapore is = to 2/half stars meh...
de tolierts ther is nt 4 human use one lor .
de things ther tat suits mi r thier bags brought 3 bags 4 myself and one heals...
still can lah...

hmm...
my result sux like hell...
dun wanna say abt it....

den went sentosa yesturday...
manage to taned but im still nt taned...
haa dunno y sia...

den play pool wif ger...
lol white ball keep go in ..
den ask ____* to take out
dunno 4 hw many times
den he become frustrated
like abit nt happie...
haa lucky at last when we going home he come talk to us
he quite friendly la compare to tat guy
_______________________________________

im back to be a happie gal
can i be tis happie 4ever
jus wish i wont see anything tat i shld nt see lol...

2005-05-17T23:54:00.000-07:00

yesturdae went santosa ...
actually tot wont rain cause when i wake up in de morning de sun bery bright...
den when we meet it starts to rain ...
but we still went...
rain fr noon to evening ...
but still fun la..
cause we hav a package tat can play pool volleyball and kayat...
is only $5 per person ...
so we r still lucky...
den noe de shop ppl...
they very funny sia
play wif them vb very fun
finally watch de sunset
reali very nice
really wish to stay ther till next dae...
nw i know y he wanted to bring mi to santosa...
if nw i confirm will go
but is far far too late...
i get my answer fr it when de sun set...

i wish de show come next will be a nice show
i confirm i will love to watch de show meh!!!

q2myanwswer_______
im waiting 4 my beloved answer___________

2005-05-14T16:58:00.000-07:00

i found only if we dun hav any secret nth will be happening...
de process wont proceed...
in tat someone heart he/she nev say out is nt she/he dun wanted to say
is tat he/she afraid when everything say out maybe everything will change...
im sure his/her heart dun feel gd at all...
life is full of happening no ones noes wad will be happening next
if we noe we will nev let go wad we hav but to let go wad we shouldent hav...

extra is like hell
de feeling sux to death...

once i jus hope i can hav back de time when i can jus be myself
nth to wonder abt no need to think b4 i act
no need to hav any regret
wont even reflect myself 4 wad i hav did
sometimes im reali tierd jus wish to leave tis place
jus wish to hav a new born mi tat is a clean and pure person ...
i hate to look back my life
even nw im afarid to look forward too
cause im afarid of________________________________________
so much so much so much
no one noe hw wad i feel
only myself
i nev blame anyone tat hates mi
cause i knew de one i shld blame is mysef...

2005-05-09T15:24:00.000-07:00

went to sch finally...
fail both of my subj...
wad can i do already fail le...
nth can be undone hen is undone...
feel tat im tat stupid
wads is it going on
i cant find de reason...
maybe is tat i have nt even put in any effort..
it mus be ba
haiz...
if my result carry on like tat wad am i going to do
my future will be sux like hell!!!
dame it!!!
haiz gt to cope up wif my other subj
and finish my art...
sad__________________
de feeling is no one can understand but myself...
thers no one to blame but myself!!!
dun blame anyone when they look down on u but reflect it fr ther...

2005-05-07T14:35:00.000-07:00

so dame it having so much to study so much to draw
i hav not enough time to do it ...
hw sia haiz
result going to sux like hell again
i guess meh!!!
later going to tuition
hw i wish he come nt i go
i guess im gonna change my tutor if i found another is cheaper and he come my house
i will difinitely change one...

nev manage to go out
wanna go town actually
but dun hav money
hav to wait den i could go buy my clothes
sian dame bored bored bored!!!!!

wanna go swimming but keep raining
but i like de weather
love it
cause if nt is dame hot!!!

looking 4ward to 21/5 cause going kl!!!
finally going ther i guess i will be alone again
but is ok cause i gt to shop!!!

too im looking 4ward to exam over
after exam heh thers so much i can enjoy
but nw i gt to study like mad and draw like mad
gonna do it rite nw if nt is too late... ^_^^^_^a week le!!!

2005-05-05T15:40:00.000-07:00

tis week mid year exam start...
so much to study so much to do dame it meh!!!
hopefully i can finish my art...
havent even started yet...
but at least jus nw went to library search 4 my pic...
going start soon hopefully can finish by next week...

2dae nv went to sch cause no exam plus dun feel like going too..
sch is so so dame boring
tis friday going east coast haa...
finally at least can relax 4 one dae!~

i jus wanna be myself
im who i am
i hate de last time mi
im nt longer tat old mi anymore
i hate ppl to say my past
i reali hate it
but i cant stop u all cause is your mouth nt my mouth
so y i bother
im happie tat i have waken up fr all of my dream
im nt dreaming anymore
is time 4 mi to face de reality
thanx 4 all of de comments u all hav given
and thanx 4 teaching mi so many things i hav learned my lesson

__________________________________________________________________

nw i wish i hope
i could pass my nlevel
go to sec 5
and
somehw somedae somewher
he will suddenly appear in frt of mi
___________________________________________________________________

2005-04-30T15:52:00.000-07:00

tis week sux like hell...
hate it so much !!!
ther a fucking dame bo liao person
say i backstab her she nt even my fren or wadever
dare to say i backstab her i think she dunno wad is de meaning lo
and she tot tat her english is de best sia...
tat time dunno who say NA pupils need to study de meh
nw dunno who drop to NA sia...
haa she dunno mah everythings comes around goes around mah...
stupid fool witch!!!
anyway thanks 4 all a comments all a complaining i love it so much meh!!!

__________________________________________________________

yesturdae went to east coast heh
guess wad saw de bo liao person...
we r so FATED meh!!!
___________________________________________________________

sian gt to study le...
fucking dame sian meh
tis time reali hav to study reali y hard
reali scare of my n level sia
i mus get up to sec 5 is a mus meh
if nt my life will be sux like hell
is so dame disgrace...
____________________________________________________________

fr nw on till nlevel i mus nt giv up
i noe i can
if i put all my effort in ...
i mus i mus i mus
nth tat i cant do it!!!
______________________________________________________________

2005-04-24T16:25:00.000-07:00

BLOGGING...

yesturdae went east coast ride bicycle.
is a reali hot and sunny dae sia...
but bery fun ...
if every weekend can like tat sure bery fit de ...
haa...

mid-year exam coming le
so much to do and study
havent even started my art sia
sian...
i need more time...
24hrs is not enough!!!

later going tuition
dame it meh
i hate my tutor and his family
but i gt to bare wif it...
in order to do well
i hav to...
pls giv mi more encouragement i need it...
i know i can
i belive i can
and i will nt regret anymore...

2005-04-21T19:39:00.000-07:00

recently love a song alot ....
cal a long long journy...
heheh i love it...

2dae nev go sch cause lazy to go...
wan to sleep...
haiz sian sia so stress so many things hav to do
pls giv mi more time meh...

i love gentle men!!!
gentle men rocks meh
haa...
cause i found one finally meh...
hmmm maybe is not or maybe is part of his work ba
but his attitude really bery gd...
service bery gd ...
everything bery gd
haa....

2morro fridae heh finally le
wanna play pool go shopping go library
go everywher but i need to hav money den can mah haiz
i need money....

somehw i wish
i wish i wish iwish
my wish will come true________________________________

2005-04-11T13:43:00.000-07:00

nw in comp lap 1... so come blog...
as usual life getting more and more boring...
but still gt to get on wif it...
nw feel like going beach...
heh...

no one will be appear in my life anymore
till i found de one tat worth to be in my life..

later gt tuition...
sian ah...
but tats de only way i learn...

sian... can my life be more happier and meaningful...

2005-04-10T14:52:00.000-07:00

FRIdaY......
went to play pool...
it sux so much....
cause i noe they dun like mi...
is jus like de feeling is so sux....
lucky kel they all at ther
so i went finding them...
after tat they going off le....
but i nev go wif them...
cause wad 4 go wif them
when each other dun like each other....
wad 4 sia... i hate it ... i dun like it lo...

SAtUrdaE.....
went cini play pool...
quite ok but feel bery odd but i dun care....
all de way is jus like putting up a show....
i hate it reali hate it....
saw ock ...
feel nth...

truth frenz is hard to find...

2005-04-06T18:45:00.000-07:00

yesturdae went tuition
haa finally i noe wad chem is all abt...

2dae went sch...
change seating arrangement..
den get mid year exam paper of my art...
still go alot to do sia...
die le going mad soon le meh...
nev bring mine phone to sch haa..
come back see my phone..
guess who sms mi...
nev i expected
or another phrase oF it
dun wanna see any of his sms...

hw i wish is him
will him find mi chat again
i dun ask 4 more
is jus a chat...
haiz haiz haiz....

i miss de daes u in sch...
is more meaningful to be in sch having u around...
nw is so so so boring...
haizZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ........

misS playinG pOOL.....

2005-04-03T20:48:00.000-07:00

heheh...
i noe which course and which poly he is going to le...
guess wad...
is republic poly & he gt to biomedical course...
but he going to apply 4 tp...
hope his application is sucessful...

2005-04-03T17:10:00.000-07:00

time pass so fast is alreadi april le...
nlevel is getting nearer and nearer le...
havent even started studying
so many things i still dunno
like tat hw to pass my n level sia...

nw copeing up wif my maths
pratice makes perfect lol...
although so many question i dun even noe hw to do...
yesturdae went to audrey yeo chalet...
is her birthdae...
u guess wad cherissa stead wif yi kai sia...
everybody is talking abt them even mi
i feel reali bad abt it
cause i noe hw is de feeling
mimyself understand hw issit like...
but it will nev be a long one....

jus nw so fuck up meh
stupid com kanna virus
dunno nw get rid of it alreadi nt
if nt later my bro come back going kill mi le...

yesturdae also went to play pool
finally i noe hw to play le
next time sian can go play le
hahaha...
feeling like going sentosa
i wan see see de nite view
sure bery nice de...
when den we going again ne???
hmmm________________

my heart includes u in
wad will it be like nt having u in
i knew de answer
i still got to carried on wif my life...
____________________________

im happie wif who i am wad i hav i thanked god 4 everything he hav given mi but not keep asking 4 more fr him...

2005-03-28T20:05:00.000-08:00

i need money !!!
i need job!!!
i need to change my hp!!!

sucker gt job always ask her
fuck de lo u intersted in her issit
pls lei dun like tat lei
gt job cal mi lei i need money lei
jus 1 week and tats enough
____________________________________________________________________

im so hottttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i hate her meh
!!! bitches!!!

pls ah giv mi job i need to change my phone!!!

praying hard to get to work!!!

2005-03-24T19:47:00.000-08:00

tis week 4 me dun seens good at all
de same thing busy wif mine art
reali feel like burning everything
is jus tat i cant think of anything to draw
everything sux...
when i ask her wad shld i do
she will jus saying im nt free nw im busy u think urself
wad issit if i noe u think i will ask u
sometime reali feel like giving up but
wad will it be if i give up
wad will it be???

i wish i can be de same as every one hav gd result
but i did'nt ...
i ask myself issit de best i hav done
i knew it is nt
im still trying
reali...
hard work is meant to be hard
hopefully somehw my hard work will be shown

sumtime i wish ther someone outther will leave his hand to mi to hold mi on______________

de dae u wan mi to change u told mi i shld
i remembered___________________

2005-03-18T14:16:00.000-08:00

im back to blog...tis week is sch holidae...
went sentosa ... haa finally we went worz!!!
hmm dunno wad shld i say...
haiz...
sucker wan say say infront of mi dun put at ur msn nick la...
fucker!!!~

2005-03-06T20:47:00.000-08:00

sch start 2morro again
gonna try my best to be in my best attitude
i gonna put in my best effort in everything
i promised myself i gonna get up to sec 5
i mus...
because of him i will______________________________

i gonna smile like nothing's wrong,talk
like everything's perfect,act
like it's all a dream,walk away
and pretend it's not hurting mi
everytime i look back ,memories will start flashing back,
time we used to be so happie 2gather maybe is all a dream...

2005-03-06T16:20:00.000-08:00

one week gone....
common test finish ...
haiz no confident i will pass...
hw sia ...

all de while i being thinking of u...
thinking hw hav u been recently
going out looking all over de place
hoping tat somehw somewher we will see each other
but nev even once
r we nt fated anymore
stories end long long time ago
but i realised i hav nev 4gotten u at all...
fr de start i let de storie ended cause i knew it is jus a game
but i noe im de one who fall 4 u...
u brighten up my dae
when i saw u
u make mi smile
u change mi
u told mi
fr tat dae
u
nev
love
mi
b4
but
i told myself is ok
cause
is jus a game

but i noe i did love u b4...

2005-03-02T16:21:00.000-08:00

2dae test histroy and phy...
sure cannot make it liao le
haiz also dunno did i reali study nt meh!!!
depressed!!!
i miss de someone...
cant slp 4 2 daes le!!
one dae pass by one dae is getting more and more boring
still stuck wif my art getting more and more stress up...
i hate de bitch big mouth sia
no wonder he dun wan her...
ass clown!!!
they tot they bery big ah
jus act big only meh
everything comes around goes around lo
be careful meh bitches and bustered!!!

i love u de much
i noe i nev hav 4gotten u
i miss u_______________________________________________________________

2005-03-01T22:01:00.000-08:00

yesturdea im happie
at least i saw him fr far far away...
haiz...
den 2dae mi heard tat he kanna beaten by bi shen...
fuck meh...
haiz ... sad sad sad...
stupid bi shen tot he bery big ah cb de meh hate him meh!!!

xiang hui dao guo qu shi zhe rang gu shi ju xu...
i wish im beaten but nt u
i wish i dun feel anything but i cant
i wish i hav 4get u
but till 2dae i noe i still care!!!

2005-02-27T18:31:00.000-08:00

morning wake up abt 9 do art
between tat watch tv & eat
after tat bery sleeply go slp again abt 2.30
wake up continue again
den father come back fr malaysia brought alot of food den eat again
bery nice neh de curry puff...
den continue wif my art ...
till nw still havent finish sia...
dunno wan go find them nt lei...
haiz...
i bery scared sia 4 my common test
i hope i can pass all my test
reali
but i noe shi bu ken ne de...
die le
havent even study
always doing my art no time to study sia
hw meh!!!
i wanna get promoted to sec 5 de neh
i cannot carry on my life like tat le meh!!!
haiz sad things when end up nev get up to sec 5
i nev wan tis to happen to mi!!!~

2005-02-24T20:19:00.000-08:00

mondae they getting o level result le....
i wish he pass his o's but i noe is a confirm pass heh heh!!!
i miss u again i noe all de long is jus crush
but i waited de long to see u again
nobody noes what im feeling
i noe shld nt even peek at u
but i cant control myself
i told myself jus one more look and tats it...
but can i???

all de long is jus all crush
nev did i hav love a person
i dunno wad is love
i noe im flirting guys almost everydae
but im enjoying it
cause i noe i shld nt be loving anyone
cause i dunno wad is love
and i dun suit to hav one

xiang hui dao guo qu
shi zhe bao ni zai hui li

xiang hui dao guo qu shi zhe rang gu shi ju xu......................................

nev will it be continue again!!!

zhe shi de wo jue de wo yi jin wu ke jiu yao le ..........................

2005-02-22T19:05:00.000-08:00

2daE SuX tat much
sian sian sian
so boring ah
stupid teacher attitude problem sia
todae siao meh
hate her so much!!!
knn better dun giv mi detention sia
fuck off!!!~

sian gt hw next week common test le
later mus study le
haiz
hope im reali stuyding meh!!!

thers 4 direction
i nev noe which direction im going
so i stay put again
tis is jus my life
is like waiting 4 dying meh
i dun wanna be like tat
i wan to hav targets to get to my goals!!!

i found im nt having de feeling anymore!!!

wo bu zhi dao wo ai de ren shi ni mah???

2005-02-20T17:36:00.000-08:00

fridae mi nev go to sch
cause dun feel like going
den afternoon alone went swimming
den meet ger sis den went to bbc
play bbl 4 awhile
aniway is de only dae i smile tat much again
_____________________________________________________________________
YESTURDAE WENT TO WATCH HIDE AND SEEK
PRETTY COOL
NICE SIA
nev regret to watch it
den we went to eat thai
is jus like double date
only tat is gals double date...
hehehe
den went explanade tot will be nice but end up is so boring
_______________________________________________________________________

de dae i told myself nev will i cry again
cry finish tat it
i noe i love him
i noe it
but does he noe??
is all abt time
it take time
tat y im waiting
but if de dae i cant wait anymore wad am i going to do???
_____________________________________________________________________
wo ai ni zhen de hen ai ni
zhi yao kan dao ni
wo jiu hui kai xin le
____________________________________________________________________

2005-02-16T20:33:00.000-08:00

i noe it all
i cant control my tears
de u all encourage mi
de u u all giv mi hope
de u all always beside mi
de u all always ask mi to look at de bright side
whenever i sad
de u all try ur best to cheer mi up
but it since nth i can be happie again

i wish i nev
i wish i nev hav f i l
i wish nt i l u
is u l m
i wish i noe wad u t
i wish u r t de same thing as they told mi

am i reali tat attitude
im asking myself
once i try my bery best to change
wad consider attitude can u tell mi???
im bo liao ?? am i???
im chlidish?? am i???
im everything tat u nt happie wif
wad am i going to do when i am trying my best to change
________________________________________

de mi
nev like to change herself 4 anyone
yet she try her best to change
de her
no longer de her anymore
dun love to talk anymore

maybe ther nth can make mi happie again
only de _______________________________
i hope de a i n r
but i hav no c e t a
de only way i can i t k t m h
_________________________________________

2005-02-15T19:59:00.000-08:00

since a long time nev blog le...
i hav alot to say but dunno hw shld i say...
same old thing...
everything as usuall
i hav______________________________
i dunno y
i noe i shld nt__________________-
but__________________________
all de while________________________________

i knew it was all
i knew i knew

i found de u
deng dai ai qing
shld i or shld i nt

ru guo shi zu ding zai yi qi de hua bu guan ju li shi duo yuan wo xiang xin yi tian wo hui deng dao ni_________________________________________________________________
wo ai ni !!!
wo ai ni!!!

2005-02-06T18:50:00.000-08:00

i love japan
i love japanese
japanese boi boi so cute
hehhehe

miss Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

2005-02-05T15:13:00.000-08:00

hehheh come blog le...
yesturdae went bugis ...
hmmm haa somehw some wher i ________________________
haiz but hmmm nt since to hav mood dun joke tat much
but still gt hehheh___________--------------------------
den went fresh box buy
shirt_________________________
blahzzzzzzzzzz

somehw somewher ther's u
i like de u smile
i like de u joke
i like de u always happie happie de
heheh
ya u r ther__________________________________________________

2005-02-02T04:51:00.001-08:00

come back fr sch so hot den go bath
nw den come blog ... chat wif k...
lol going to bet meh
better win ah... lol
2dae nev pe... do chinase test... english check dictionnary...art draw... maths study...
2morro gt histroy test physic test...
sian...
later mus study cannot slp...
mus do art also...

sign off...........

2005-01-24T09:21:00.000-08:00

haiz todae so many sad sad things happen sia... so many ppl relationship ended see le i also nan guo sia.... ass clown de sia de guys only noe hw to hurt gals only...
a lesson to be learn ... to mi i think is jus a puppy love ... am i wrong??
truth love hav to slowly find de... dun get to de concluesion too easy if nt u will regret 4 wad u hav done... arent it truth.... jus nw do my art half way den come use com den see her nick mi reali bery de shock sia... jus nw mi and ger say de hua reali so zun meh... haiz reali dun wanna see her sad sia... but maybe it will be gd to end dis relationship nw cause duan tong bu ru chang tong... correct??

y mus love if u noe it was jus a crush???
y mus love if end up u noe u both wont be togeather 4ever
y mus love if end up u gt hurt
y mus love when u cant belive each other
y mus love when he cant accept de u
y mus love when your all cant speak to each other wad your all think of each other
y mus love when u noe everything gonna be back to square one again

u go into love is nt u reali love de person alot is u feel lonely u need tat someone
u need de someone to hold on u to encouage u to giv u a listening ear to hav tat person to sms tok on phone and de person motivation on u...

2005-01-22T16:31:00.000-08:00

iF is mEaNt To Be uRs It wILl Be UrS
IF it is not it 4ever will be nt...

if we r fated somehw some dae we will saw each other again....

2005-01-22T16:12:00.000-08:00

yesturdae went bugis & orchard shop 4 mine new year clothes...
brought 3 top and one pair of shoes...
den after tat went back tm
buy bonnie's skirt & go ebase...
after tat we went to semei going to raymond condo
den when waiting 4 mrt to approch
suddenly regina say chun kiat chun kiat...
den i turn back i saw his fren first den i saw him
lol... i was totally at lost meh ...
he reali change alot he become shy
he no longer de last time him animore if nt he sure will cal mi de sia
mi xin shui le meh...haiz ... so pai seh sia...

i waited and waited hope somedae i will saw him
he finally appear
but he no longer de friendly him ani more
he is shy
as usual im shy too
i think of him
no longer hw long it is i belive some hw some dae i will saw him..
time reali change a person
reali???

r we reali fated???
arent we???

u make mi smile________________________________________

2005-01-20T12:19:00.000-08:00

2daE public holidae so no need to go sch haa!~!
later going out to cine ...
i need money sia cause later treating ger 4 her belated birthdae...
my father faster come home pls...
going out finally haa!!!~

i waited and waited
will it be a long long time 4 mi to wait???

he appear but i noe is jus a crush
it will jus be a hi bye fren arent it
_______________________

2005-01-20T10:35:00.000-08:00

todae dunno y nt in a mood...
haiz... do art do untill so frustrated... reali cant control my tempered...
dunno y whole dae feeling so tierd... alomost everydae... fuck sia become more and more lazy each dae... wanting to giv up im so stress up... im real tierd!!!

i wish ther's someone
i wish u r ther to hold mi on
i wish u can cheer mi up
i wish u can brighten up my life
i wish my hand were no longer empty anymore
i need tat someone!!!~

2005-01-16T20:52:00.000-08:00

2morro hav to go sch le
sian sia...
havent finish my hw yet
dun feel like doing sia
nw chatting wif him
so funny de always chat wif mi ask mi my hair long alreadi nt
lol...
guys r so xian shi meh...
mi went rebound hair le
nt reali like it
haiz no choice hav to leave with it
till it grow longer den i can perm my hair le...
haa
waiting 4 de dae....

2005-01-13T13:37:00.000-08:00

fuck up sia stupid friendster cannot upload pic...
slow slow de meh...
better can meh after i blog in...
make unill i du lan...
todae math teacher nev come so free period 2dae slp in many lesson sia..
cause having flu so tired sia...
hate having flu...
2morro dunno wan cut hair or
wait till sundae rebound hair lei..
dunno sia...
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sign off~